Not quite as tired...

Sometimes I think that the good Lord gives you days that are meant to bring you down in order for you to appreciate other days.

Last night I finally got a good night's sleep. This morning I awoke with a whole new attitude. I think the Bible study I am doing right now got me in a funk yesterday. Now this is not a bad thing; sometimes you just need to 'cleanse' your system from all the guilt you carry around. And sometimes that means that you need to have a downer day. You think about what is upseting you, you pray about it, you pray for forgiveness, you give it to the Lord, and then and only then can you start to move on from it. I am not saying that I will never feel guilty about the same things again; I am saying that each day will now be easier than the last because each day I give my guilt and debt to the Lord and I ask for my debt to be forgiven and it is!! That is the part that I was having problems with. I know that He can and will forgive me; but, in not forgiving myself and continually feeling guilty, I am NOT trusting Him. So, each day I am asking Him to help me let go!

Yesterday was a day of purging! Thanks for all the hugs and for letting me vent! I know it's my blog and I can do what I want but it's nice to know so many people care.

Tired...

of alot of things. So today I am going to vent!

I am tired of snow...Yep me!! I love snow but I am officially sick of it. I do not want the hot summer but I want the snow gone!

I am tired of being tired...daylight savings is kicking my butt! I love the extra light at night but getting out of bed to run on the treadmill at 5:30 in the morning...it's just too dark. I know that I will get used to it but it throughs my whole system off. I am hungry at weird times and I am not hungry at meal times. I wake up hungry...normally I don't eat until 10:30 in the morning.

I am tired of being over weight...I have been working my tail off on the treadmill every day. (I give myself one day off a week.) I have cut back on food intake. I have increase exercise. I have given up chocolate and candy! Nothing in over a week! I have not lost; I have not gained. I hate plateaus.

I am tired of dealing with rude people. Drivers, sales people, reporters, customers...ugh! They just don't understand that you get a lot farther with me by being nice than by being rude.

I am tired of being bored...I know that this is a lull before the storm but I don't like not having enough to do at work right now and it drives me nuts to sit here not have enough to do. I feel guilty!

I am tired of feeling guilty! Guilty about not having enough work to do...guilty about my son's sadness over the divorce...guilty about living in sin...guilty about pushing my son too hard...guilty about not being a good friend...
guilty about the lack of relationship I have with my biological father...guilty about not looking for my sister sooner...guilty about way too many things.

Okay, now that I have that off of my chest it is time to move get over it and move on.

I am happy too! But I will leave that for tomorrow!